Songs on Backs of Envelopes

The Last Time

2011-10-27T08:00:00.002+01:00

Verse 1

Watch a spark reignite

Hold the fire until it burns

Keep desire sweet

Forget what we've learned

I hide behind my eyes

Until my thoughts dissolve

As words are set alight

And worlds evolve

Chorus

Let's retrace our last mistake

Escape time and all it takes

You and I

Eye to eye

No questions, no Lies

Lost in the last time

Verse 2

We safely take these steps

Above what we recall

With no more pride

There’s nowhere we can fall

Let blood rush through our veins

To flush shadows away

A final scene

A final replay

Chorus

Let's retrace our last mistake

Escape time and all it takes

You and I

Eye to eye

No questions, no Lies

Lost in the last time

Bridge

So fall into the future

And wherever it goes

Leave the smoke and mirrors behins

For the last time

Inertia

2011-10-27T07:50:00.001+01:00

Beautiful fires burn

And bubbles float until they spit

You made your bed

She lay in it

So there you are

And there's our story spilt

So now I’ll learn to live

With your guilt

Until we find the place

Where gravity meets space

Rise above it all

Free from the fall

Taken by Inertia

Betrayed by the fire

As time taught times to scald

You took what was sweet

And turned us cold

Though I try to run

My hope won’t escape

So I’ll just regret

Your mistake

Until we find the place

Where gravity meets space

Rise above it all

Free from the fall

Taken by Intertia

A fought force is free to take its course

The fallen words have flown

We are alone

As the world spins around

Hold me here

Hold me now

Don’t look down

Oh let’s find the place

Where gravity meets space

Rise above it all

Free from the fall

Taken by Inertia

Roots

2011-04-16T15:47:00.001+01:00

Heads above the ground are free to breathe

And the air washes over our scene

But the roots beneath us stretch to fetch the water

So let the truth between us lie

Let it lie

For you and I

Won't you put your eyes on me

I’ll be everything you see

Though maybe these scenes aren’t what they seem

From the surface to the air

My oh my how our gardens grow

‘til my eyes show you all you dare to know

Summer leaves the fall to takes us to winter

Unmoved- as life around us dies

Let it die

For you and I

Won't you put your eyes on me

I’ll be everything you see

Though maybe these scenes aren’t what they seem

From the surface to the air

So put your eyes on me

Scenes from seeds we planted long ago send roots

Paint memories with fantasies

"You and me"s with "meant to be"s

From the surface to the air

Won't you put your eyes on me

I’ll be everything you see

Though maybe these scenes aren’t what they seem

From the surface to the air

So put your eyes on me

Find Myself Lost

2010-08-23T10:25:00.004+01:00

Quiet memories collide

They trace the turning of the tide

We knew that innocence was frail

Temptation ruled to twist the tale

With mixed emotions, fear and lust

The habits, turned to instincts, turned to dust

You couldn’t face solitude alone

Now I know your face better than my own

So I’ll run

Run like I can hide

To the sun

Til hopes and tears collide

And I'll find find find find find find

Find myself lost

It’s time for out time to expire

So kill the chorus of fire

We can’t relive the pretense

That reality made sense

Stuck in your mirror I was free

Only to reflect what I could see

As it shattered I was cursed for a time

Still I know your face better than I know mine

So I’ll run

Run like I can hide

To the sun

Til hopes and tears collide

And I'll find find find find find find

Find myself lost

Find a reason

Find a rhyme

Why the absurd

Meets the sublime

Now if I shut my eyes

I'll see you

Cos I know your face better than you do

Kaleidoscope

2010-08-23T10:23:00.005+01:00

I could peer into your mind's eye

See shapes twist and colours grow

To lure me away

From things you deny - the things I know

Reflective symmetry

Hypnotic as you call

I could fight what I see

But I let myself fall

And I fall as I'm mesmerised

Drawn to the colours of your lies

A trick of your eye

Trick of my mind

[Kaleidoscope]

As beautiful illusions taint my vision

I watch shapes merge and colours glow

A perfect projection

To take me away from all I know

Deceptive symmetry

Drowns the warnings through the wall

I get too close to see

So close that I fall

And I fall as I'm mesmerised

Drawn to the colours of your lies

A trick of your eye

Trick of my mind

[Kaleidoscope]

Rearrange the twisted motion

You change your colours - change your ways

Still drawn in by devotion

I'm captured by your gaze

Lost in your eyes

Mesmerised

Waterfall

2010-08-23T10:20:00.004+01:00

v.1

Shallow waters kept us high and dry

‘Til poisoned daughters came to spoil the sky

Your eyes saw more than mine hoped to reveal

I couldn’t hold your gaze - I hoped I’d heal

Our smiles were sore

Our faces were worn

Waiting, knowing

The clouds were torn

But as they rain down

I am reborn

Now the water, water falls

Watch the water, water fall

I’ll stand beneath the waterfall

Let the water take my tears

Dilute the times that tainted me

Until my memories run clear

v.2

I question answers I gave long ago

As time shows more than I could ever know

Ears ring with what cannot be undone

I can blame nothing but what I’ve become

The weight of your world

Is on my shoulder

I fought its force

That made colder

Now the sky opens

And I behold her

Let the water, water fall

Watch the water, water fall

I’ll stand beneath the waterfall

Let the water take my tears

Dilute the times that tainted me

Until my memories run clear

The darkness brings temptation through the walls

And finds a way to spoil what I recall

Until I find the waterfall

Live to Tell

2010-08-23T10:17:00.003+01:00

I know I’m right

I know you’re not

Injustice has me

Fighting all that time forgot

The lines were crossed

The walls were built

Now we can't go back there

I can't live with your guilt

So I live to tell – and speak to survive

While I watch these wasted thoughts thrive

I’ll keep running – but I won’t arrive

‘Til I stop

Thinking ‘bout thinking ‘bout you

A stolen moment

These thieves move fast

To take the thunder

From a time – not built to last

Envy’s not pretty

I’ll leave it alone

Alone I’ll go now

Down these roads – I’ve never known

So I live to tell – and speak to survive

While I watch these wasted thoughts thrive

I’ll keep running – but I won’t arrive

‘Til I stop

Thinking ‘bout thinking ‘bout you

It wasn’t love but

An angry obsession

All ignited by your

Vacant expression

I'll fight my instincts and

Rose tinted recollections

Remember that the only difference between

Lonliness and freedom

Is my perception

I live to tell – and speak to survive

While I watch these wasted words thrive

I’ll keep running – but I won’t arrive

‘Til I stop

Thinking ‘bout thinking ‘bout you

Get Hurt. Get Cold.

2010-08-23T10:14:00.001+01:00

Cold skies, black lies

Let me go

You've chosen and I'm frozen

You'll never know

So I'll paint a hollow smile

You'd see it beak if you cared to notice

Now I've found the bottom

And still not lost my mind

I've forgiven not forgotten

Like the two don't coincide

Now I find I'll have no more than I hold

So I get hurt get cold

Cold eyes, black ties

Let me mourn

Things I'll never have

Now hopes are torn

And I could tell a stranger

All the things I'd never tell you

Can you see that my reaction is dictated by yours

This love is fake

From the sublime to the subliminal

You put me here now I'll learn from your mistake

I'll get hurt get cold

Mirage

2010-08-23T10:11:00.003+01:00

Let the light refract

Keep illusions intact

Our purpose and delight

Will pass with this night

The surface holds relief

From all that lies beneath

We’ll take to the stage of sabotage

Get lost in the mirage

Mirage Mirage Mirage Mirage

I know my eyes deceive me

And I know this ends as it begins

I’ll tempt time ‘til it relieves me

Til you touch me and I don’t feel a thing

Illuminations left their mark

They only dazzled in the dark

Now cold from the light of day

As it melts facades away

We can’t be smitten and content

We can only desire through a lament

When the burning questions take charge

And lead us back to the mirage

Mirage Mirage Mirage Mirage

I know my eyes deceive me

And I know this ends as it begins

I’ll tempt time ‘til it relieves me

Til you touch me and I don’t feel a thing

Now I miss you like you were never here

Yes I miss you like you were never here

The Derelict Puppet

2010-06-16T20:22:00.007+01:00

Prelude

The derelict puppet was broken in the corner

Worn from times where truth and tears had torn her

Her eyes screamed for a saviour to save her from her fallen grace

Still she couldn’t wipe the smile off her pretty little face

Verse 1

All tragic heroes are flawed

This puppet craved to be adored

Dazzled by fame and fine things

While the master took her strings

He twisted truth to spin the story

Far from shades of faded glory

What then when the rolling dice

Lets the underdog win twice?

Chorus

Poor poor puppet – what’s this world about?

The master had his way and now you’re back up on your shelf

Poor poor puppet they chewed you up and spat you out

And made it look like you did it to yourself

Verse 2

The master who left her there

Holds the key to her repair

But trivia and speculation

Will see no accumulation

Let the ignorant surmise

As they read between the lies

The prognosis getting worse

Your greatest day became your curse

Chorus

Bridge

Strangled by your strings

You turned a darker shade of pale

But the silence that it brings

Won’t mark the end of the tale

Now the flowers naively suggest

That you rest

Last line

The derelict puppet was broken in the corner

Taking My Time

2010-06-16T20:18:00.004+01:00

You rescued me from contentment

Your heart ruled by infatuation

Now should I despair

‘Cause I couldn’t compare

To the girl in your imagination?

I seemed strong but I was brittle

When enlightened by transparency

Keep your honest words

I know I preferred

The lies you used to tell me

Chorus

Now let us draw the line

We’ll leave our shape behind

You have your way - I have time

And I’ll take it

We could lie side by side as we once did

Be as our hope would have us be

Let go of our sense

And rebuild the pretence

That you’ll want me when you have me

Though my feet yearn to take me back there

I can’t unlearn what I know

This path has been worn

The scenes have been torn

And though you lead us on - I can’t go

Chorus

So I’ll take my contagious broken heart

And become someone I don’t admire

Win a heart in vain

And pass on the pain

To someone that I don’t desire

When I fall for him it will trigger

The decay of his infatuation

I’ll run – tale untold

And watch fate unfold

From the safety of my imagination

Two Silhouettes

2010-04-09T11:35:00.008+01:00

I see two silhouettes become one – I look away
Hide my eyes from all that you have done - but it's too late
I won't lose that vision again
I couldn’t see the shadows in the dark
The light showed me how it feels to be betrayed
A broken heart beats as the scenes are replayed

So I'll stare into the sight until I'm blind

I can see the light as shadows entwine

As projections play

And I’m lost behind the vision

I blink for a moment’s relief – to doubt a fears
My closed eyes harden belief – and seal the tears
Don’t hold me with your gaze – I know where it’s been
You are still you
But still new colours glow
The light shows me all that I need to know

So I'll stare into the sight until I'm blind

I can see the light as shadows entwine

As projections play

And I’m lost behind the vision

It was your body

It was my heart

And I watched on as you tore me apart

Now your mistake is my regret

You and your empty silhouette

So I'll stare into the sight until I'm blind

I can see the light as shadows entwine

As projections play

And I’m lost behind the vision

Close

2010-04-09T11:35:00.006+01:00

Verse 1
Echo echo echo–
Like a mantra - times are instilled in my mind
Futile banging on the wall -
I hoped would transform ‘to a door
So I could see what lurked behind

The wall held firm - smiles became subdued
The more I found the less I knew
I thought I was somebody
Not anybody to you

Chorus
But I could’ve loved you if you’d let me
I could regret you if you’d forget me
Now dawning lights illuminate scenes that replay
We were close, close, close
But you were so far away

Verse 2
I know, I know, I know –
In this world filled by your absence I want more
To feel heart’s palpitations:
A charming look, a tender moment,
But I don’t believe them anymore

And I’ll probably be better without you
But not until I realise that’s true
Now I am a body
Was I ever somebody to you?

Chorus
But I could’ve loved you if you’d let me
I could regret you if you’d forget me
Now dawning lights illuminate scenes that replay
We were close, close, close
But you were so far away

Bridge
Perhaps you should taste the bitter to sense the sweet
And perhaps too much bitterness erodes sensation
Perhaps I should delve to discover deceit
As an antidote to infatuation?
A cure? I'm not so sure...but

Chorus
I could’ve loved you if you’d let me
I could regret you if you’d forget me
Now dawning lights illuminate scenes that replay
We were close, close, closeBut you were so far away

EndingI
n another time, and space, and world,
You’ll find another girl.
And perhaps you’ll let her close

Not a love song

2010-04-09T11:31:00.002+01:00

V1
People promise “I’ll love you forever”
I can’t say “I’ll love you for now”
‘Cause feet get cold
And truths get told
All I know isI want to hold you now

V2
I’m not seeking the generic
I don't hope to be defined
So don’t be absurd
You keep those three words
And smile
Because we're intertwined

CH
This is not a love song - I’m not saying that we're “meant to be”
And I'm not even sure that there is such a thing - I just like the “you and me”

V3
Love is conditional
There are no guarantees
A ring on display
A Kodak sponsored day
Lock doubts up
'Til someone finds the keys

V4
So forget what's yet to happen:
The future scars and vows
Let's stay in our minds
Let's stay in this time
It's justs
You and me - here and now

Ch
This is not a love song - I’m not saying that we're “meant to be”
And I'm not even sure that there is such a thing - I just like the “you and me”

Bridge/Extra Ch
I want us to want this - I want us to want to explore
And when we don't - well then we won't - do this anymore

V5
I won’t ask for forever
Let’s stay in our cocoon
Let's share tonight& then when it’s light
We’ll swap kisses
And I will see you soon

CH
This is not a love song - I’m not saying that we're “meant to be”
And I'm not even sure that there is such a thing - I just like the “you and me”

George and Dorothy - Alone Together

2010-02-05T13:30:00.003Z

George and Dorothy: Alone Together

Verse 1

“Meant to be”s and loves young scenes

Wedding bells and painted dreams

She wanted love - he knew how to make it

Where hearts and minds don’t merge - just fake it

She built him up to steal the crown

‘cause he kissed her when she was down

But what happens when the king of the castle

Becomes the dirty rascal

Chorus

Georgie Porgie my oh my

You kiss the girls then make them cry

The snake that slithers up the ladder

You wanted her - now you’ve had her

Verse 2

Lamb dressed as mutton - a soul for sale

Now she’s numb to the detail

Monogamous for fear there’s no one else

Better alone together than by herself

So she stays inside and she stays in bed

Cos if she gets out he’ll bump her head

Time to take back that heart he stole

‘cause you can’t see the world through an arsehole

Chorus

Georgie Porgie my oh my

You kiss the girls then make them cry

The snake that slithers up the ladder

You wanted her - now you’ve had her

Bridge

Keep a keepsake for the sake of it

See her heart break and what they make of it

But when the rainbow shatters

What will Dorothy do then?

Deflated Balloons

2010-02-05T11:25:00.001Z

In the corner of the room
The deflated balloon
Offers commiserations
Not what they had in mind
It's just that someone misdefined
Love as infatuation
And as time erodes
The dream corrodes
And suddenly...

Stuck here with this man and the three bodies they produced
She thought she'd fight that fate but must've called a truce
So locking all emotion, firm inside the vault
She hopes he'll hurt her so
The end won't be her faultT

he bullet's there to bite
But apathetic to the fight
A stranger in her life, she's sedated...deflated

She watches weeks and days and months arrive and then disperse
While time and rhyme and reason barter better for the worse
And has lost all hope of heroes lifting this unbroken spell
Four eyes on the ceilingTwo bodies parallel

The bullet's there to bite
But apathetic to the fight
A stranger in her life, she's sedated...deflated

She settled for settling
Now found, bound by this metal ring
Came here for fear she'd be on her own
Now she's never felt so alone

Again

2010-01-24T11:33:00.005Z

So that was us
I had to try
And not let my conscience to be my guide
But we won't return
To where we were
Now my eyes are open wide
It’s nothing new – I always knew
And so today I’ll smell of you
And tomorrow it will be washed away

I put you high
On a pedestal
Too far and high to see we were fools
I thought I’d find
That look in your eye
The one I saw when you wanted it all
You made your bed – I lay in it
Now Clarity helps me admit
It’s all been washed away

Now I’ll seek a degree of indifference
Until I think what I thought I thought
And hope time doesn’t find the resilient denial
That lets us reconcile
…again

So one bitten
Twice is unwise
I’ll let shyness be my guise
And my silence
Will hide despair
Because this shock is no surprise
It’s not bad luck – there were no dice
I let you break my heart twice
How was it restored to be washed away?

Now I’ll seek a degree of indifference
Until I think what I thought I thought
And hope time doesn’t find the resilient denial
That lets us reconcile
…again

Be with be without you

2009-12-26T20:07:00.005Z

Untangle the limbs

Unhinge the minds

But can’t unblow the fuse

You played by your rules

I played by mine

Stuck in two games - both were bound to lose

We’d throw our stones in the glass house that we built

(I want to hurt you - wanted to hurt you)

‘Til our tongues were tied - bound by bitterness and guilt

I want to hurt you - wanted to hurt you

I want to hurt you now

But you won't hurt if you can't feel

We won't see the scars 'til the wounds have healed

Still while we will and we won't - then we don't and we do

It hurts to be with be without you

I painted your portrait

Now hate what they see

As hindsight escapes me

Reality fades

The cafes, footsteps, songs

Are ghosts that haunt me

I’ll treasure tears - and ignore the great

(I want to hate you - I don’t want to hate you)

And I’ll let lonely magpies seal my fate

I want to hate you - don't want to hate you

I want to hate you now

But I won't know hate if I don't know love –

I'll rule hand on heart, fist in glove

But while we will and we won't - then we don't and we do –

I hate to be with be without you

Head tells heart to rue a lesson learnt

But I miss who we were before we weren’t

But I know

I can forgive like I’ve forgotten

I can’t forgive like I’ve forgotten

I hate - it hurts to be

Cement Lament

2009-11-02T10:50:00.002Z

Sitting on the cement
Spitting this foul lament
Wondering how I got to here
Eyes are pouring black dirt
Ears are ringing, feet hurt
Haze rises so descends the fear
What have we here?
The sky is black, the air’s blue
Hope I’ve drunk enough to
Erase the shame
Kids stumble to the station
I relieve conversations
I don’t want to hear again
Oh not again.

I was so high I touched the sky as I did fly.
And no, oh so low.
All I know is I should go.

They say ignorance is bliss
I was happy with this
Before I saw
The look that you gave me
I needed you to save me
But you chose to ignore
Me on the floor
If I cover my eyes
And believe childhood lies
Will I be invisible?
I relieve what was spoken
My eyes slam wide open
I never was invincible
No not at all.

I was so high I touched the sky as I did fly.
And no, oh so low.
All I know is I should go.

Sobered by thoughts of intoxication
And deafened by the voiceless conversations.
I regret all I forget, the things I know you know.
And so

I’m sitting on the cement spitting this foul lament.

Megan's Song

2009-11-02T10:47:00.001Z

I saw you in the corner, you were pouting out your gaze
And the boys around adored you, they were basking in your rays
Your hair, your clothes, your shoulder bones were all so well contrived
Facsimiles of the magazines from which your look derived
You want to live the cliché but deprived of deprivation
If you’ve got nothing there’s nought to lose well that’s quite an estimation
So you take what you get, got it good, and give it all away
Now tormented and downtrodden, because you’ve got nowhere to stay
But you’ll always have a place to stay.

If you think you’re original you’ve seen nothing - nothing at all
If you think you’re original then you know no-thing.

I saw you at the bus stop trying to hitch a free ride
A pick me up to pick you up from the world that you despise
The false fast lanes and niceties did not get you too far
Well if you choose to run on treadmills, then you’ll stay where you are
Goading and free-loading, still claim the world’s unfair
But if you’d started walking, you’d already be there
But melodrama works for you, trap victims in a trance
They come like flies to spiders' webs - caught as they catch your glance
Now take your stance - GO

If you think you’re original you’ve seen nothing - nothing at all
If you think you’re original then you know no-thing.

I saw you in the paper staring back from the front page
My mother asked if I knew you as we were the same age
There where they all predicted, I shocked but not surprised
But your method and conclusion, no one could hypothesise
I cover my eyes

If you think you're original you've seen nothing - nothing at all
If you think you're orignal then you know no-thing

Happily ever after

2009-11-02T10:40:00.001Z

Once upon that fateful night
Our maiden searching for her knight
Before her eye could meet his glance
That temptress trapped him in her trance
As eye to eye they stop, she knows
As the liquid catalyst flows
And fluid conversations pourS
he will clutch him with her claw.
And face to face they try to fashion
True love’s kiss with vacant passion
As hands meet shapes and shapes meet lips
They consummate acquaintanceships - yeah

No no no happily ever after today

Anonymous morning afters dawn
As what had beauty does transform
And our fair maiden comes to find
Unloving touchers intertwined
Her knight locked in this witches arms
Fallen to peroxide charms
She lost all sense of the naïve
As they tore her hear from her sleeve
And so our maiden bound by rage
Locks that heart inside a cage
And builds a castle in the sky
With moats and dragons standing by - yeah

No no no, happily ever after today.

And although it seems she does resist
She hopes one hero does exist
To rescue her from this foul fate
Now all that she can do is wait...

The End

It

2009-11-02T10:24:00.000Z

I saw it and I did swoon;
It was tall, it was grand, it was special.
So I took it to my room
And put it on a pedestal.
From the moment it was mine
I began the dissection;
I picked it, pecked it, plucked it, poked it
-I just wanted perfection:

But now it’s falling and I know that I’m the one who pushed it.
I see what it’s become:
A dream in smithereens
What have I done.

So I’ll say “curse these rotten odds - how can this be?
It’s like I’ve shattered a mirror, the way this bad luck’s haunting me.”
And yes, accidents happen, but I know there’s just one reason why I’m doomed
To this empty room

It repeats in slow motion;
Each time there’s nothing I can do
And now I’m numb to emotion
I still can’t see things from my point of view.
But my little old destructive mind,
It was out to sabotage;
It taunts, it haunts, oh how it flaunts
The tainted, torn and strewn montage.

Fierce to the world but I was such a coward;
I stopped, looked listened Much too much.
I played it safe and now I’m sorry without it’s touch.

So I’ll say “curse these rotten odds - how can this be?
It’s like I’ve shattered a mirror, the way this bad luck’s haunting me.”
And yes, accidents happen, but I know there’s just one reason why I’m doomed
To this empty room

Although my mirror’s not shattered,
I still blame all that it shows.
Because my reflection
Tells me all I need to know.
So I’ll convince the world and myself
That I stumbled and it tumbled down.

Reluctant Ornithology

2009-11-02T10:17:00.000Z

Watching birds wondering why they can’t blink
And cherishing my eyelid
I momentarily shut out the world
And that’s the way I like it
Still I hear things from the corner of my ear
Conversations rudely awaken
Talk about the ins, the outs
As I have to doubt
That the hokey cokey is what it’s all about

But if what I can’t see can’t hurt me
Then I won’t look over there
But curiosity has got me
Like Alice,
Now all that I can do is stare

As I start to see the wood through the trees
I wish I could back track
To times when naivety blinded me
But things don’t turn green from black
Now all of this is hard to swallow
But the gin goes down as my mind roams
As I drink I think of easy routes
To all my desires
Though I’m not sure that I’ll find my way home

But if what I can’t see can’t hurt me
Then I won’t look over there
But curiosity has got me
Like Alice,
Now all that I can do is stare

Now the girl with the orange face explains it all
Perhaps I envy her vision
If I believed her lies
Then I wouldn’t be sitting here wondering why
The birds and I can’t shut our eyes

But if what I can’t see can’t hurt me
Then I won’t look over there
But curiosity has got me
Like Alice,
Now all that I can do is stare

Hide, Don’t Seek

2009-11-02T10:15:00.001Z

Gone at the speed of silence
As quiet as the dark
I leave my final mark
Don’t know what to say and
I’ve lost the strength to fight
Nothings wrong but it’s not right

A picture perfect world
Left hanging by a thread
Weighed down by things left unsaid
But bro-ken silence
Can lead to broken hearts
When words tear worlds apart

I’ll hide you from me
Won’t hear you when you speak
I’ll hide you from me
And I won’t seek

I’ll tell my shape not to miss you
Tell my desire not to kiss you
Know some things aren’t built to last
I’ll tell my thoughts not to wander
I’ll tell my head not to ponder
Whatifs and maybes that have passed
And though it’s broken
It’s not beyond repair
I’ll fight the urge to care
When wants and needs collide
Something has got to go
- I’ll go, and so

I’ll hide you from me
Won’t hear you when you speak
I’ll hide you from me
And I won’t seek

No Trace

2009-11-02T10:06:00.001Z

You and I
Eye to eye
Questioning the answers we derived
Lost secrets sworn
Hearts were torn
From our sleeves, gone before thought arrived.

And exchanging load glances 'cross the warzone
Carnage followed by that shock, now you're alone

So I'll run from me
To places we used to be
And stare into our space
Return to the scene of the time
When what was yours was mine
But it's gone...there's no trace

Force denial
Sculpt a smile
From all of the ruins and remains
Can't take back
That attack
Can't surrender once we've lost the game

I fought for fear that it would take its flight
But broke it choked it from holding it too tight

So I'll run from me
To places we used to be
And stare into our space
Return to the scene of the time
When what was yours was mine
But it's gone...there's no trace

Tempt a temper
To cross the line from love to hate
Peace in pieces
I'll wallow in this hollow state
Too much too late

So I'll run from me
To places we used to be
And stare into our space
Return to the scene of the time
When what was yours was mine
But it's gone...there's no trace

Visibly There

2009-11-02T10:03:00.000Z

I can see you there eyes fixated
Vacant, burdened stare can’t be translated
Screaming thoughts consume
Hear sound in a vacuum
Though you know it’s there
And your external canvas
Is untainted by the bitterness
But inside prevails
That more than tragic tale
And the moral's less than obvious
And I’m less than helpless

So console a soul
Bitten by the shock of horror
Halve a whole
Asking, craving, searching
For an answer to the question
Eternally denied
Why?

I can see your smile is less than hollow
Let it eclipse your eyes - that can’t see tomorrow
Take what it takes
Just to escape
The sympathy, the sorrow
As your wounds are concealed
You pray but doubt that time will heal
But you know her face
Will always be tracedIn everything you ever feel
You don’t want to feel

So console a soul
Bitten by the shock of horror
Halve a whole
Asking, craving, searching
For an answer to the question
Eternally denied
Why?

Gathered twigs at the roadside
A broken bouquet
Something precious and vibrant
Was taken that day
All I do is reflect
Your rhetorical gaze
And there’s nothing I can say.

Love’s young dream

2009-11-02T10:01:00.000Z

I drew my misshaped heart shape on my etch-a-sketch for you
Gazing at that face, your face endlessly I adored you
I stopped, looked but listening was much too much
I was locked, hooked and wanted nothing but your touch
Now I’ve had quite enough

The grass looked greenBut things are not what they seem
Cos we were love’s young dream
And what a dreamer I was

Stare through the glass pane, feel shame for times I waited on you
I count the pulled shapes, mixed tapes that I had wasted on you
You’d just wound me up and let me go
I was stung and I how I to know
You didn’t love me so

The grass looked greenBut things are not what they seem
Cos we were love’s young dream
And what a dreamer I was

You were all I wanted
And I saw something
That wasn’t, is not and never will be